plans wasted, procrastinated

dreams unveiled to no avail

mind unfocused, understated

slipping into the murky depths

silently screaming like a suicidal person looking for help

borderline depression, yes here's my confession

please don't let it be my first impression

or my last, gotta get up fast, the quicksand is up to my ass

pulling me in, displaying my sin, trying to sink my determination to win

so when doubt knocked hard, somehow I let down my guard, 

he said ok this is sweet, she gonna be easy feat, 

for awhile I let it cause I wasn't beat

sometimes I surprise myself, when I forget my wealth,

and let all the negatives walk in under stealth.

they only got so far before I put up the bar, holding them back,

going on my offensive attack. 

They have no defensive tactics I’m taking the lead, all backup plans I will impede. 

I won't fall to you mercy, please concede. 

become a spectator, you're not a player in my game with this said, Amen in the GOD's name!